How to start. I fell apart in so many ways. For at least the past 5 years I have been mistreating my body. Eating crap. Munching down supplements, and thinking I was taking care of myself. What a joke .
I have heard that theres a force – God? not ,sure but, i think—- first tends to shake you. Then with no response, maybe the shaking becomes more. Maybe even a smack, a slap or two. Well – I got punched. Got the flu, got pneumonia. Wound up again in the hospital with low oxygen levels. Now I’m home. Working on my oxygen levels. But – most importantly working on me. This was a huge wake up call. I am re-reexamining all aspects of my life. In particular I am now eating healthy. No more chips, fried foods, bad snacks. This is huge for me. I am paying attention to my body. I am starting to take better care of myself. In solid nutrition. Also working on what’s important to me. I may not have that much longer to live – there are no guarantees. I want to be there for people I love .
And Tom – what he has done to take care of me. I could not continue to live like this without him. And Carter, Patrick, Alina. I am thankful they are here.
I sacrificed myself for Anita. I knew I was getting sick too. I didn’t know what to do. So, I took care of her until I got bakc to GJ. Then I fell apart.
Listening – to me, to people I love, to my body. To music. What’s important now. Where do I go from here? I am thankful I am getting another chance. Someone is watching out for me…mom? something higher that I don’t quite understand.